am i growing up?

This past week at work was intense, to say the least. I put in 70 hours this week because we're prepping for our service day this Wednesday, which is opening day. I also ended up volunteering for 8 hours on Saturday, not realizing that the week was going to be so laborious. So needless to say, I'm exhausted. And this week is supposed to be worse...

I'm starting to realize quite a few things in this new job of mine. I'm a person who not only thinks I'm always right and hates being wrong but am also a person who doesn't like admitting I have flaws and especially hates when others point them out (but I seem to be excellent at pointing out other people's flaws; funny how that works). I also only like/enjoy doing things that I'm really good at (which makes sense, considering I don't like to admit my flaws). Through daily interactions with my teammates and different things we have to do for work, I'm starting to recognize my flaws. For example, when it's appropriate to say something and when it's not--often times I feel the need to correct things or voice my opinion at all times because I think everyone wants to hear it when in reality, that's not the case at all--basically learning to keep my mouth shut. Also, as stated previously, I'm extremely impatient. And it takes a mountain of energy for me to be patient with others but I'm slowly learning through working on a daily basis with an extremely diverse group of people. I find that some days I get home and I'm thinking, "We didn't do much today, but why am I so tired?" It's because I spent so much of my energy working on being patient or working to not voice my opinion on every little thing.

At City Year, we have these little nuggets of inspiration/information/advice called Putting Idealism to Work (PITWs). There are 181 of them in total. I saw one hanging on the wall in the office and it said "PITW #159: This is Hard. Be Strong." I'm becoming cognizant of this reality more and more each day. I guess this is a part of growing up (and I was over here thinking I'm already an adult)...and will only add flavor and spice to my "story."

Switching gears, here is a video of what will be happening this Wednesday, September 30, which is Opening Day!! We also will be getting our uniforms this week so that's exciting.

more on civic engagement

Last week, we learned more abut the positions on the Civic Engagement (CE) Team and what a typical service day looks like. As stated earlier, one of the main goals of the CE team is engage others in service that is transformational, sustainable, and inspirational. A community service event can be transformational if it leaves a tangible difference in the community, alters someone's values, beliefs, self image and behavior, creates new or strengthens existing channels of social change, or changes one's daily routine. A community service event can be sustainable if the work you performed will not revert to its previous state, or is continued by other in the future. Lastly, a community service event can be inspirational if the participants know they have made a difference.

The positions on the CE Team include: Recruitment Manager, Operations and Logistics, Visual Arts Coordinator, In-Kind Manager, Tools and Materials Manager, and Site Manager. We applied for these positions on Thursday and had to rank them, including why we wanted each one and how we might excel in each position. I ranked my top 3 as Recruitment, In-Kind, and then Site Mgr. I have zero interest in the other 3. I mentioned that I had experience both in recruitment and in-kind positions and would excel at both because I could develop my interpersonal communication skills and I love building relationships and nurturing those relationships. We did some recruitment training at the Claremont colleges on Thursday and the experience felt so natural and I loved every minute of it!!! I'm crossing my fingers for my first choice!!

We had the morning off on Friday and had to be in Pershing Square at 1 pm for Unity Rally which was hot and almost unbearable; but something I have to get used to for the next 10 months. I'll post a video sometime so you all can really see what we do. It's hard to explain with just words. We then learned about our "Idealist Journeys" and were given workbooks to accompany our "Idealist Handbook." The idea of the journey comes from Joseph Campbell, author of The Hero's Journey. The first quotation in our Idealist Journey Workbook is from him and reads,

"What I think is that a good life is one hero journey after another. Over and over again, you are called to the realm of adventure, you are called to new horizons. Each time, there is the same problem: do I dare?"

Adorning the same page is a quote by Robert F. Kennedy which reads,

"Each time a person stands up for an ideal or acts to improve the lot of others, he or she sends out a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other through many centers of energy and daring those ripples create a mighty current that can strike down even the strongest walls of oppression and resistance."

In the introduction, there is a quotation by President Barack Obama which states, "What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility--a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation, and the world, duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task." [Obama below supporting City Year in Chicago].

The introduction goes on to talk about how City Year believes in the power of a young person to change the world and we agree with Robert F. Kennedy that even the smallest acts of service create ripples that spread through communities, and that ten months of service is far more than a small act. City Year recognizes that the decision to dedicate ten months of one's life to citizen service is a heroic choice. It is a decision that is sure to take us out of the familiarity and comfort of the lives we've known so far, and launch us down a path of meaningful challenges, interactions with fascinating people, and unforgettable experiences. It is also a decision that will test our skills and abilities in profound ways, and provide experiences that will leave us powerfully transformed. City Year describes us as Boundless Idealists.

A Boundless Idealist is one who constantly seeks to become his/her best self and a better citizen. Someone who seeks meaning in his/her life through giving back to communities in need. Someone who seeks unique experiences that challenge traditional views in favor of something better. The handbook goes on more but I don't want to bore you with the details. The introduction ends with the words..."Welcome to the adventure of a lifetime; your journey starts here, right now." [We will meet in small groups every other Friday and go through the exercises in our handbooks].

We also have this thing in City Year called "Joys and Ripples" which is something we do either at the beginning or at the end of the day. Drawing from the Kennedy quote earlier, a "ripple" is the telling of a brief, inspiring anecdote about an act of idealism, courage and belief and a "joy" is the sharing of joyful news or information. I was walking home the other day, pondering my brief time in City Year and all the things I had learned in only 3 weeks, and stumbled upon the pciture below only a block from my house (I thought it was kinda cool).

FAST FORWARD to Monday....

So I got my first choice and I'm the Recruitment Manager!--I was so elated!!! We were given our psitions in an envelope, and inside there was a quotation which read "Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true" [Leon J Suenes]. We'll see how that plays into what I accomplish this year. I think I can do a lot with this position and hopefully recruit thousands (daunting task?) of volunteers of the course of 10 months.

That's all for now but I will try and post more than I have been, maybe twice a week; I've just been extremely busy. Look for a post coming Friday!

basic training retreat: big bear lake, CA

Last week we traveled to Big Bear Lake, CA (see above photo) for our Basic Training Retreat (BTR). Here, we learned which teams we were on, challenged ourselves, did some team building, and learned about inclusiveness. We arrived at the office at 10 a.m. and left for BTR at 11 a.m., spending 3 hrs in HUGE yellow school buses. Once we get there, we're ordered to meet on the basketball courts. They called our names in 4 different groups and at this point, I was 100% positive that I didn't get the team I applied for (which made me slightly angry, but I didn't want to jump to any conclusions so I tried to relax; which as most of you know, is extremely hard for an impatient person like me). Once in these groups, we had to line up single file while they blindfolded us. After this, we were led into the woods and guided to this maze, which consisted of a piece of yarn tied to a series of trees that we had to follow. Once we completed the maze, we were each handed objects. They gave me a sharpie and other people standing next to me had either a paintbrush, a squishy ball, a piece of wood, etc (all types of random stuff). After everyone finished the maze, we were allowed to take off our blindfolds and we had to run back to the basketball court and find other corps members with the same object. I found my 5 sharpie people and then a program manager gave us strips of paper that had the song "Don't Stop Believin'" by Journey on it. We had to arrange the lyrics of the song then sing it aloud to the Program Manager. Once completed, she instructed us to go inside the conference building and find our team leaders who would be holding up a sign with our object on it. In this moment, I knew I had made it on the Civic Engagement Team. I was beyond ecstatic!!!!!!!!

After this whole long interesting ordeal, we met with our new teams and had "Hour One," which was basically a "getting to know each other" session. Our Program Manager, Jeremy, told us that we were the cream of the crop and that more than half of the corps had applied for the Civic Engagement Team. He basically fed our egos for a few moments and it felt great! Then we were quickly humbled once he laid out the Rules and Expectations: a) Be present--on time and bring our "can-do" attitude; b) Leave your negativity at the door; c) Be honest-with the team and yourself; d) Be ready-always have on the proper uniform and come prepared for the day; e) RESPECT-yourself, each other, and the work that we do. It's important that we're always getting the work done and constantly pushing ourselves beyond our happy mediums. In 10 months, we plan to engage 33,000 volunteers in 22,000 hours of service. Jeremy encouraged us to be go-getters and leaders on our team. In a typical week day, we will start work at 8 am and work until 6:00-6:30 p.m. On Mondays and Tuesdays we will run after school programs at middle schools from 2:00 p.m. until 5:00 p.m. On up to a couple Saturdays per month, we will conduct our large scale service projects with volunteers from all over the community and typically have the following Monday off. Despite the long hours, I'm extremely excited about getting started!!

On Thursday, we did a ropes course from 8 a.m to 12 p.m. with a trained instructor. Before we started the ropes course, we had to go around and say a strength, a hesitation/weakness, a goal, and if we had to be a cartoon character, which would we be. I said that my strength lies in my interpersonal communication skills and a hesitation/weakness was in my ability to at times commit to too many things out of excitement. I said that a couple of goals of mine were to 1) be the most genuine person I can be and 2) commit to serving the people of Los Angeles to the best of my abilities. Lastly, I said I would be tweety bird if I could be any cartoon character because she's small and everyone likes her. Before we climbed up this super high pole we had to mention something we were working on in our personal lives and steps we would take toward solving it. I mentioned how I'm impatient and am really trying to work on it (which I'm starting to realize is a constant struggle for me). My teammates offered ideas on how to slowly become a more patient person such as trying to count or talk myself down when I feel like I'm about to act out of impatience. We'll see how this works in the future. Easier said than done, of course...

That evening, we had a visitor from City Year Boston who was a former corps member there and now works on their staff. He highlighted the fact that 50% of our dropouts come from 12% of our schools, meaning that fixing the problem of the drop out rate is an attainable goal. He talked about how the work we do at here at City Year is invaluable and how we will carry our year of service with us for the rest of our lives. He spoke to us about several things: 1) people often see diversity just as a M&M's: a bunch of colors; 2) people are not born prejudice, prejudice and biases are learned; 3) guilt immobilizes-in the sense that if you feel guilty for being more privileged than the people you're serving, you can't get anything done because it detracts from the goal of what you're trying to accomplish; 4) there will always be diversity of difference and the only way to appreciate diversity is to appreciate these differences. Then we did a "Privilege Exercise." If you've never hear of this/done this before, this is how it works: Participants line up in a single row, everyone facing the person who will be giving the instructions. The instructor says a series of statements which tell the participants to take a step forward or backward depending on the statement. For example, the instructor would say a series of statements such as, "Please take a step back if you have ever been called bad names because of your race, skin color, gender, or ethnicity;" "Please take a step forward if you have graduated from college;" "Please take a step back if you or your family has ever received welfare, Medicaid, or food-stamps;" "Please take a step forward if your family makes more than $100,000 annually;" "Please take a step forward if both of your parents have college degrees;" "Please take a step back if you have ever been arrested;" "Please take a step forward if you grew up in a 2-parent household." After about 100 statements like this, when everyone looked around the room, there was a large gap between the person in very front and the person in the very back. We then had an open forum/discussion about reactions from the exercise. There was a range of emotions, including anger, hope, sadness, frustration, and happiness. But the general consensus of the group was that no matter where you stood on the privilege line, we are all here doing City Year and have come together on one accord in order to change the system which currently exists in society today.

On Friday, we did team Olympics (my team lost because there are only 6 of us and all of the other teams have around 18 people) which was fun despite the outcome. We drove back to Los Angeles around 2 p.m. and I spent the rest of my weekend resting from an exhausting and eventful yet fun-filled 3 days of training.

This week (first week of getting paid, Hallelujah!) we will be doing more specific training with our teams and learning about what the next 10 months will look like. I am excited but am slowly adjusting to this whole "8 a.m. to 6 p.m." workday thing, as well as learning the highs and lows of public transportation and traffic in LA!

first week of service

This week we spent a lot of time training, going to workshops, visiting schools (LOTS of walking around LA; I have the blisters to prove it), and learning about every aspect of City Year.

Day 1 (Tuesday)

I walk into the office with my roommate and there are about 30 people, both staff and senior corps members, fully clad in their yellow City Year jackets, Timberland pants and boots, dancing, clapping, and singing, welcoming us to our first day of service. It was a little intense yet the atmosphere was so contagious! It even made me want to dance, but I refrained because, after all, it was only the first day…

We were given a warm welcome by our Executive Director, Allison Graff-Weisner, who told us a little bit about what to expect over the next 10 months. The following video takes a more in depth look at the work that we do here at City Year.

After this we traveled to Pico Union where we did a big service project at The Salvation Army Los Angeles Red Shield Youth & Community Center. The administrators working at the center were planning to do a mountain of work with only 8 people, expecting it to take them a few weeks to complete. Instead, 150 of us finished all of the work in one day. It was so powerful for all of us to come together and see the tangible results of our service!

Day 2 (Wednesday)

Power and Idealism are our big themes here at City Year and learned a little about them. Our handbook reads, "We define power to be the civic power that is attainable by everyone. You do not have to be in an authority position in order to inspire other to action. One can perform powerfully in a variety of ways, but you must possess four qualities in order to be effective: spirit, discipline, purpose, and pride. At City Year, we take idealism very seriously, even as we pursue it with joy. We begin by rejecting the notion that idealism is just a positive mindset or attitude (although both are helpful and important) or simply being naïve. Instead, at City Year we view idealism as skills—imagining, recruiting, transforming, and inspiring—that can be mastered and put into practice. The culture of idealism is perhaps the most critical element in City Year’s success, and embracing it—even enhancing it—is essential to each individual’s success at City Year.”

Day 3 (Thursday)

Today we learned about “Unity Rally,” something that we will be doing every Friday morning for 10 months in the middle of downtown at a place called Pershing Square, one of the most public places in all of Los Angeles. A Unity Rally includes a “readiness check” to ensure everyone is prepared both mentally and physically. They help us prepare for a powerful day of service and demonstrate that young people are not only proud, positive, and powerful but also ready to serve and lead.

We also learned about the potential assignments each of us would receive. This includes the Civic Engagement Team, Youth Corps, and Whole School Whole Child:

The Civic Engagement Team will plan and implement large scale service days throughout Los Angeles. The main goals of the team are to ensure that all service is transformative, inspirational, and sustainable. Responsibilities of the team include, but are not limited to, planning and creating the service, recruiting volunteers, and organizing all aspects of the Service Day. This is also the most competitive assignment because there are only 7 spots and there are 150 corps members (of course this is what I put as my first choice).

Youth Corps is a Saturday leadership development and community service program for sixth to eighth graders and high schoolers that is run by City Year corps members. Participants learn about the social issues in their community and then work together to solve those problems through hands-on community service (this was my fourth choice).

Each Whole School Whole Child team will work in one of our partner schools, focusing on serving students at-risk of dropping out (as indicated by attendance, behavior, and course performance) through academic support, positive school climate activities, and after-school programming. Corps Members serve in elementary and middle schools in Pico Union, Boyle Heights, South Los Angeles, and Watts (these were my second and third choices).

Day 4 (Friday)

I can already tell that Fridays will soon become my favorite day of the week because they will be spent in the office, and we start at 9 am and end at 4 pm! We learned about our Standards as Corps Members and things we can and can’t do. For example, we can’t wear headphones while in uniform. We also have to give up our seat on a bus or train if there are people standing.

Opening day is September 30, 2009 (Wednesday) where 150 of us will pledge to serve the children and communities of Los Angeles. The speakers will be Mayor Antonio Villaraigosa and Superintendent Ramon Cortines and it will take place on the South Lawn of Los Angeles City Hall at 9 am. If you’re in the LA area, I’d love for you to come! Ask me for details. :-)

That’s it for now. We don’t work on Monday but we’ll be having our Basic Training Retreat in Big Bear Lake, CA from Wednesday through Friday. Here we will learn about our teams that I mentioned earlier so hopefully I get my first choice (fingers crossed!)

Have a great rest of the holiday weekend!